But you have already survived. Has the survival thing gone on long enough?
Only you can decide.
What lies beyond survival? Most people think the answer is: dying. But the surprising actual answer is: living.
The untransformed Gremlin is dedicated to keeping you in survival.
The transformed Gremlin is at your side as an ally - as an unlimited resource of nonlinear possibility - dedicated to you living full out.
GREMLIN TRANSFORMATION OCCURS IN PHASES DURING SEVERAL YEARS OF FIERCELY PERSISTANT WORK IN A PRECIOUS GREMLIN TRANSFORMATION TEAM
There are four or five Phases of Gremlin Transformation Work.
The first Phase you will encounter is Phase 0. We call it 'Phase 0' because it is a piece of work which you cannot do for yourself. Someone else has to do it for you. Phase 0 of Gremlin Transformation is when someone tells you that you have an unconscious Gremlin that is destroying your life and eating your opportunities for intimacy and creation.
Hearing this information is a nuissance, a bother. You may not even know what the speaker is talking about. In fact, the 'speaker' may be an author of an article or a book. They could be a panelist in a video, or a presenter at a conference. You did not expect to hear anything so devastating, insulting, or disgusting, yet something rings terribly true about what they say. You go into shock. You may hate this person for a while. You may run away as fast as you can and try to bury your head deep into the sand.
On the other hand, some long-constricted knot in your heart may relax at finally being nailed dead center with a perfect hit. You have a Gremlin. It saved your life in childhood and adolescence. It gave you power and deviousness back then. It helped you to lie, and cheat, and steal your way through. It helped you to remain numb, hard, cold, tough enough to survive. It promised you 'sweet revenge', or very big excuses and reasons why your life had to be this way.
And, eventually, as incident after accident piles on top of each other providing you with evidence about the existence, trickiness, and consequences of your Gremlin contaminating your Adult Egostate, blocking intimacy, and running your life with its addictions, secrets, and reactivity, you are ready to learn more. You are ready to face into the existence and unconscious purposes of your Gremlin. You are ready for something completely different from this. You are ready to wake up, change your life, and go down a different path than the one your Gremlin is taking you down.
That is when you may find this website. That is when you may contact a Gremlin Transformation Spaceholder, call them up, and ask them, "Hey... I need you to tell me about Gremlin. Do I have a chance? Can I get out of this mess?" Then you are willing to listen.
Someone has gone before you along this Path. Someone has gone first to discover or invent new options to choose from. This is when you need your Team. Making truly new choices is not simething human beings are famous for. Taking A Stand for new Clarity, new behavior, new Results is best done in a Team. Beypond this point you do not make it as a Lone Wolf or Single Fighter. You have too many grooves in your brain with years of habitual reactivity, years of habit patterns. Your Gremlin Transformation Team and 3Cell help each other catch the unconscious Gremlins at work keeping you small, dark inside, cold, and disconnected... keeping you in Survival when your soul is longing to serve something greater than yourself and to start living.
TRANSFORMING YOUR GREMLIN IS LIKE TRAINING YOUR DOG
I saw a man 'training his dog'.
The procedure so exactly matches some parts of Gremlin Transformation. For example:
The clarity and consistency of speech and agreements.
The reward with small bits of Gremlin / dog food chosen by the man, not by the Gremlin / dog.
The patience and persistance.
Avoiding the good / bad belief, judging, threatening, punishing, manipulation paradigm.
The simplicity and clarity of the requests from the man of the Gremlin / dog.
The repetition, repetition, repetition, to build new habits.
Creating a trusting collaboration that is good for the Gremlin / dog and good for the man.
Building an extraordinary new future for both of them working together.
Before dog training, the dog only wants to be a dog: dig big holes, chase cats, get fed, get pats on the head, chew your shoes, bark at the door, sniff French Poodles and Basset Hounds, peeing on telephone poles.
Before Gremlin Transformation, the Gremlin only wants to be an unconscious Gremlin: compete, be superior / inferior, be right, make wrong, blame, justify, complain, resent, hate, plot revenge, steal, sneak, lie, cheat, betray, drink, smoke, get addicted, not care, go insane, undermine intimacy, jab others with evil jokes, break hearts, be cynical, snide, and crass, laugh horribly at other people's pain, not care at all that anything dies. (To get graphic cinematic insights into the two sides of Gremlin, please watch Steven Spielberg's film, appropriately titled: Gremlins.)
The only difference between dog training and Gremlin Transformation is that a Gremlin can actually relocate its Point Of Origin into a Transformed Gremlin context, with conscious and practical access to unlimited resources of Nonlinear and Unreasonable Possibility... a dog cannot do that.
Gremlin can become a fierce wizard at your side, able to do anything your Box cannot do. This is inconceivably useful and High Level Fun!
Gremlin Transformation Song by John Black
(Song and Lyrics by John Black)
Gremlin, Gremlin, you know I know your name.
Gremlin, I see, you love low drama games.
Gremlin, Gremlin, you rule the underworld, but Ooh Gremlin, you’ve surely got some pearls.
I do anything I please.
I’ll bring you down onto your knees.
You think you know this gremlin’s name.
You think you know my gremlin games.
I run the show.
Everybody knows that I do anything I please.
Gremlin, Gremlin, I got some real good news.
Gremlin, I been, to Gremlin Training School.
Now we make a new start. Sit down at my side on a leash.
Gremlin, you got nowhere to hide.
I see you Gremlin, you got nowhere to hide.
What the hell is happening here?
I’m all bound up, I’m full of fear.
Why’d you put me on this leash?
Now you control my gremlin feed.
Gremlin we’ll just reframe a little piece of our Gameworld.
Quitting porn is about reclaiming your authentic sexuality, aligning your actions with your values, and decolonizing your mind. For organizers, activists, and revolutionaries, choosing to stop using porn will make you feel better, leave you with more energy and time, and is a stand in solidarity with women and girls—which is also a stand with the living planet.
This article will introduce the harms of pornography, share a radical feminist perspective on porn, a radical indigenous perspective on porn, a short interview with Noam Chomsky, and provide some tools to help you stop using porn.
Sexting and Pornography are eroding whole generations from birth. — Native Youth Movement
Critical Media Analysis of Porn
Critical media analysis tells us how the advertising and mass media industries use psychological tricks to encourage us to buy and spend more time watching screens. It works. The global entertainment and media industry is worth more than $2 trillion.
However, few of us apply the same critical thinking to pornography. Like mass media, porn is big business. The size of the industry was estimated at roughly $15 billion in 2018 in the U.S. alone. That’s more revenue than Hollywood, Netflix, the NBA, Viacom, or the NFL.
Porn influences individuals and our entire society. However, this influence is rarely interrogated. Porn production and use largely happens in the shadows. It’s mostly a private habit that people indulge in darkened bedrooms and offices. And unlike other large industries, it’s usually not discussed. We educate young children about advertising and mass media to encourage caution around images that are, by design, manipulative. But young people are rarely educated about pornography.
Human sexuality is a powerful force, and is something that can be beautiful, enjoyable, and important. Pornography, in contrast, is a “super-normal” stimulus. Our ancestors did not evolve in a world where the internet provided instant access to explicit images and videos.
At a biological level, modern internet porn is completely unlike authentic human sexuality, which involves face-to-face communication, desire, relationships, conversations, sex, and so on. Porn, in contrast, provides a never-ending stream of digital images. This super-normal stimulus is why many men, and a smaller number of women, are addicted to pornography.
Porn is to sex as heroin is to a runner’s high. Rather than nourishing the self and others, as authentic sexuality can, porn leaves users alienated, shameful, disconnected from partners and others around them, and wasting precious time—the only thing we have in life—looking at an image on a two dimensional screen. And like opiates, compulsive porn use is very common.
Why to Stop Using Porn
There are many reasons to stop using porn.
1. Porn harms women.
There are real women (and men) working in the pornography industry. They tend to have very high rates of drug abuse, STDs, mental health issues, physical and sexual abuse, and premature death. More broadly, porn fuels demand for prostitution and for sex trafficking. Tragically, there are many examples of porn depicting trafficked women who are being raped on-camera. Porn is not a fantasy. It is something happening to real people.
2. Porn harms society.
Critical media analysis tells us the images we are exposed to effect us. This is why advertising works. Porn lives inside the minds of the people who watch it, and then filters out into society. Porn also gravitates towards “shock content” as people become accustomed to hyper-normal stimulus. This is why porn so often contains blatant racism, real and faux underage and “teen” content, acts that are not actually pleasurable, BDSM, incest tropes, and outright violence. One analysis of the most popular porn films found that 88% of scenes contained violence against women. The objectification of women, negative body image, and abusive practices normalized by porn have ramifications throughout society and particularly on women and girls.
3. Porn harms users.
There is nothing categorically wrong with masturbation, but porn is not masturbation. It’s masturbation moderated by a patriarchal, capitalist industry. People who use porn don’t actually get anything out of it. They don’t get good sexual education. They don’t strengthen their relationships by building trust and intimacy. They don’t make money or become more enlightened. They don’t even get real, lasting pleasure (users consistently report feelings of shame, depression, and anxiety regarding their habit/addiction). In this sense, porn is similar to a destructive drug addiction. It harms users, yet they crave it and have trouble stopping.
A Radical Feminist Perspective on Porn
Feminists have been speaking out against pornography and the objectification of women for a long time. The great anti-porn organizer Andrea Dworkin wrote that:
“Pornography incarnates male supremacy. It is the DNA of male dominance. Every rule of sexual abuse, every nuance of sexual sadism, every highway and byway of sexual sadism, is encoded in it. It’s what men want us to be, think we are, make us into; how men use us; not because biologically they are men but because this is how their social power is organized. From the perspective of the political activist, pornography is the blueprint of male supremacy.”
A quick visit to any popular porn site confirms this. Whatever facet of patriarchy you are concerned about (sexual harassment, sexual assault, incest and family violence, rape, workplace abuse, exploitation of young women and girls by older men, forced childbearing, sexualized racism and racialized sexism, revenge porn, upskirting, voyeurism, and every other possible form of non-consent, deception, coercion, etc.) you will find pornography catering to and sexually reinforcing those ideologies.
Radical feminists have long argued that the sadistic brilliance of pornography is that is sexualizes domination, objectification, and violence; that it encodes patriarchy within something that feels pleasurable, and thus makes it often invisible. Andrea Dworkin, once again, wrote that “Pornography is the institution of male dominance that sexualizes hierarchy, objectification, submission, and violence.”
The feminist writer Susan Griffin described both the production and consumption of porn as a ritualistic rite to patriarchy with political ramifications rarely understood by those participating in it:
“For above all, pornography is ritual. It is an enacted drama that is laden with meaning, which imparts a vision of the world. The altar for the ritual is a woman’s body. And the ritual which is carried out on this altar is the desecration of flesh. Here, what is sacred within the body is degraded.”
A Radical Indigenous Perspective on Porn
Griffin’s analysis of pornography as a ritual that is conducted on women and girls and broadcast into the minds of hundreds of millions of people worldwide has some similarities to a radical indigenous perspective on pornography.
From the Native Youth Movement Warrior Society [edited for length]:
When two humans exchange their energy it is a sacred union. In our pre-invasion world sex was seen very different than today, very sacred; the most sacred of our ceremonies, the one that is universal. By exploiting sexuality, we exploit our essence as life forms. By colonizing and changing our sexuality they colonize our first and oldest ceremony, so sacred every man and woman had their own and it was only viewed, attended and participated in by them.
It is now controlled by the perverted minds of the colonizer. If they control what arouses people and when, through imagery, they can make a person think about sex and control the oldest part of us. The hind brain is older and stronger than any other portion of the brain. We share it with all other backboned animals.
When hind brain is in charge, accessing neural networks that are responsible for compassion, self-awareness, and emotional intelligence is harder. The place where our deepest love comes from can be quickly overridden by the hind brain. Today most people in the industrial world function in this continued state of narcissism. In other words, they have sexualized our world as a way to control the oldest thought process of survival.
Sexting and pornography are eroding whole generations from birth. While sex is thought of as a curse word in public and our communities, dysfunctional sexuality is a behind-closed-doors addiction. In 2012, the Internet Watch Foundation found that an “estimated 88% of self-made explicit images are stolen from their original upload location and made available on other websites, in particular porn sites collecting sexual imagery of children and young people.” When the person who originally sexted the photo finds out everyone has access to it they can go into depression and there have been manycases of suicide.
Indigenous views of sexuality must be revived as a Sacred teaching for our young ones. The future of Indigenous people is at stake. Body parts are not objects, just as the humans they are part of are not objects, they are sacred life forms that must be treated good and engaged respectfully. Physical appearance is shallow. A person’s mind must be in good health to be healthy.
When asked about his stance on pornography - in response to a perceived endorsement of Hustler (pornographic) magazine, who had tricked Chomsky into giving an interview for the magazine - Noam Chomsky responded:
Pornography is humiliation and degradation of women. It’s a disgraceful activity. I don’t want to be associated with it. Just take a look at the pictures. I mean, women are degraded as vulgar sex objects. That’s not what human beings are. I don’t even see anything to discuss.
Interviewer: But didn’t performers choose to do the job and get paid?
The fact that people agree to it and are paid, is about as convincing as the fact that we should be in favor of sweatshops in China, where women are locked into a factory and work fifteen hours a day, and then the factory burns down and they all die. Yeah, they were paid and they consented, but it doesn’t make me in favor of it, so that argument we can’t even talk about.
As for the fact that it’s some people’s erotica, well you know that’s their problem, doesn’t mean I have to contribute to it. If they get enjoyment out of humiliation of women, they have a problem, but it’s nothing I want to contribute to.
Interviewer: How should we improve the production conditions of pornography?
By eliminating degradation of women, that would improve it. Just like child abuse, you don’t want to make it better child abuse, you want to stop child abuse.
Suppose there’s a starving child in the slums, and you say “well, I’ll give you food if you’ll let me abuse you.” Suppose—well, there happen to be laws against child abuse, fortunately—but suppose someone were to give you an argument. Well, you know, after all a child’s starving otherwise, so you’re taking away their chance to get some food if you ban abuse. I mean, is that an argument?
The answer to that is stop the conditions in which the child is starving, and the same is true here. Eliminate the conditions in which women can’t get decent jobs, not to permit abusive and destructive behavior.
How to Stop Using Porn
There are many ways to stop using porn, but the difficult part is the psychology of quitting. Unlike a drug like heroin or alcohol, porn is barely addictive at the physical level. People quitting heroin or alcohol often need medical support and gradual weaning. Porn is not like that. The addiction is primarily psychological.
Most compulsive porn users are convinced that they need porn, that they like it, or that they’ll feel miserable without it—even though using porn makes them feel shameful and physically depleted. This is the psychology of addiction.
So how can this be overcome? There are a few common methods used by millions of people around the world to stop using porn. These include EasyPeasy, Fortify, Your Brain on Porn, and others.
1. Stop Using Porn with the Easy Peasy Method
“Easy Peasy” is a method adapted from Allen Carr’s 1985 book The Easy Way to Stop Smoking. The method focuses on first transforming your attitude towards porn by seeing it as a drug that has no benefits and embracing a desire to quit. This method is interesting because it emphasizes happiness and contentment to be free of porn, and discourages people from feeling like they are depriving themselves of something by quitting. It involves reading a short book (also available as an audiobook) and is free.
2. Stop Using Porn with the Fortify App
Fortify is a smartphone and web app that is available for free to help people stop using porn. It was created by the people behind “Fight The New Drug,” an anti-porn organization. The app helps prompt you to take certain actions, get support from others, track your progress, and do mindfulness exercises. A free version is available, as is a paid plan with more tools that costs $10 USD per month.
3. Stop Using Porn with Your Brain on Porn
YBOP doesn’t prescribe a single program for quitting porn. Rather, it has a collection of tips and tricks collected over many years and from many people.
Please note: these methods are not explicitly feminist creations; they are self-help methods that are largely apolitical. Many anti-porn communities and forums still contain misogyny. However, don’t let this discourage you from using the resources that are available.
Gremlin is a fascinating concept. So is Gremlin Training. So is the Gremlin Diet.
Unfortunately, fascinating concepts don’t change anything. They ping around in the mind, but they don’t stir the water deeply enough to create authentic transformation. Authentic transformation requires practice and experimentation.
After putting together their lists of 50 Gremlin foods, selecting 5 of these foods, and then choosing a day of the week as their Gremlin feeding day, the Gremlin Hunters of Gremlin Training entered the realm of practice and experimentation. For the first time in their lives, they went cold turkey on their Gremlin foods. They quit coffee, sleeping in, eating ice cream, creating Low Drama with their loved ones, stealing, procrastinating, being right, indulging in jealousy, scrolling phones, hooking people with sexual energy, objectifying men and women, lying, taking shortcuts at work, sending emails while driving, hitting the snooze button on their alarm clocks, gossiping, playing 15 games of online chess in a row, having pizza 3 times a week, and more. They kept a BEEP! Book at their side and jotted down what they noticed. They shared their struggles and successes in the Telegram Group. They did Emotional Healing Processes (EHPs). They met with their 3Cells and worked with what was coming up. And when they ate Gremlin food and it wasn’t their Gremlin Feeding Day, they didn’t beat themselves up (another Gremlin food). Instead, they started over.
When Gremlin Training stays a theory, nothing changes. When Gremlin Training becomes a practice, the Liquid States are big and rapid. And where there are Liquid States, there’s also the possibility of change.
Here are some of the things people reported this week:
• “I'm starting to see how my Gremlin has taken over my life.”
• “For the first time, I’m discovering that my Gremlin is my ally, not my enemy. He wants to serve me.”
• “I always feel like an outsider in spaces like this. I am letting myself be more fully in this space and experiencing the love that is here.”
• “My Gremlin’s role is to stop me from feeling pain. He keeps me cool and sarcastic. I’m seeing how he keeps me from feeling the pain that comes from the belief that I am not worthy of love. And I’m doing an Emotional Healing Process about it!”
• “I am finally feeling the sadness of wanting so badly to connect and be in contact with people, and how my Gremlin sabotages it to protect me.”
These are words from people at the edge of transformation.
Report from WEEK 5: UNHOOKABILITY, NON-LINEARITY, (IN)SANITY, & HIGH-LEVEL FUN
Pulling back the curtain and discovering the damaging, numbing, diminishing activities that the Gremlin is really up to leads to an experience that might broadly be referred to as "pain." Pain can include:
Remorse for the ways we have harmed the people around us through our unconsciousness...
Grief for the years that we avoided our true calling and instead stayed in jobs or relationships that were "safe" because we were scared...
Horror to discover that in every relationship where we assumed we'd been betrayed, wronged, door-matted, manipulated, or otherwise unfairly treated, we were the ones who set it up to be that way; we were the ones who were the perpetrators, victims, and rescuers...
Rage that we never knew we had a Gremlin because no one told us...
Shuddering sadness that the only barriers between us and real intimacy are the ones we've built ourselves...
All of this "pain" might lead us to think (not unreasonably) that Gremlin is bad and that we should do whatever we can to get rid of him/her. But this attitude overlooks a really important slice of the Gremlin Pie: Namely, that Gremlin is an infinite resource of nonlinearity, creativity, nonsensical possibility, productive trespassing, etc., and, when properly trained, Gremlin can be one of our greatest allies in serving our relationships, our Archetypal Lineages, and the world.
During Week 5, we dive into this world.
We begin with Unhookability. Person A uses their Gremlin to toss a hook at Person B. Person B gets centered, grounded, and bubbled and then uses their Gremlin to swirl, spin, divert, rebound, Aikido, pirouette, or in some other manner refute the hook cast by Person A's Gremlin. It takes practice, but with some coaching and feedback, the Possibiltators start to look a little bit like Neo dodging bullets.
Next up is nonlinearity. This process is little like speed dating. Two people meet in a room for two minutes inhabiting one identity. When the two minutes are up, the room closes, and it's onto the next room where each person inhabits a brand new identity. New voice, new faces, new posture, new topic. Two minutes pass, then onto the next room and the next identity. And so on and so on. When it's time to come back to the main room, people are aglow. Who am I? What's in an identity, anyway?
Lastly, it's time for the 'Goin' Sane' process... But some things are better left to be experienced than explained...
please contact these individuals directly to learn which Gremlin Transformation services they offer: dates, costs, registration requirements
The point of experimenting is to become transformed.
All preparations are Experiments.
None of the Gremlin Transformation Preparations below are optional.
Gremlin Transformation is, however, optional.
The choice is up to you.
Not your Gremlin.
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Matrix Code GRTRANSF.00
THE THING WITH THE SECRECY
Matrix Code GRTRANSF.01
Write 20 things in your BEEP!Book that you did secretly as a child. Also write down who you hid each of these things from. Also write down why you decided to do them alone and secretly as a child. What was the fear that motivated you to do it? Then go through all 20 points again and check how you do it today. Are you still doing these things secretly? And what other things do you do secretly today? Who are you hiding them from and why? What is the fear?
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DO NOT BE CAUGHT
Matrix Code GRTRANSF.02
In this experiment, you can explore what's so appealing about doing things secretly. To think that no one sees you while you're doing it. That no one would get the idea that it was you. To explore how much energy you expend trying to cover it up. How exciting the idea is for you that someone might catch you doing it. Get up around 2:00 a.m. every night for 3 days in a row when everyone in the house is asleep. Sneak quietly into the kitchen and open the refrigerator. Quietly and stealthily eat something from the fridge while the fridge door is open so you can close it immediately if you hear anything suspicious.
Don't pay attention to who the food belongs to, you are doing it secretly after all and your plan is that no one will suspect you.
Don't talk to anyone about your experiment for 3 days.
I suggest that at the end of the 3 days you definitely clear it up and inform your family or roommates what the experiment consisted of and what you explored. (I live alone in an apartment right now and everything in the fridge is mine. The experiment still worked exactly as I described it).
Answer the following questions in your BEEP!Book: - What effort did you make to stay undetected? How did you make sure you were awake at 2:00 a.m.? What did you do about the squeaky refrigerator door or how did you walk in the dark apartment? - On a scale of 1 - 100%, describe how exciting the 2:00 a.m. experiment was for your physical / emotional / energetic and intellectual bodies, respectively. - What feelings are mixed in that excitement? - What part of you feels joy? - What feelings do you feel while doing this experiment all to yourself? (You can't tell anyone for 3 days). - What feelings / emotions do you feel at the moment you tell or where you are caught doing it?
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Matrix Code GRTRANSF.03
Examine advertisements to see if they exhibit any of the following criteria: - Gender superiority or inferiority. - Sexual attraction as a salient characteristic of women - Suggesting sexual availability of women - Sexualization of children - Trivialization of sexual violence against women
Do this by simply keeping your eyes open when you watch TV or walk around town looking in shop windows. The Internet is full of ads and you'll find a lot of it on the radio, too. Which industries are particularly affected by this?
In German-speaking countries, there is a report office for sexist advertising. https://werbemelder.in Report some of your finds there.
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FINISH THE "SEE NOTHING, HEAR NOTHING, SAY NOTHING GAME" / 1
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Have you already done the experiment "The thing with the secrecy"? If not, you can't do this experiment. Take your list of things you still do secretly. This experiment is about stopping the sneakiness game. As a child, you may have been in a situation where a parent or teacher forced you to admit something that you were afraid to hide. This was a situation in which you were absolutely powerless and could not keep your dignity.
You may have even been punished after the matter was on the table. A real "double-loose" situation: the humiliation of having to admit it, and then a hefty fine as well. No wonder you've become a true master at sneaking around. But the point today is to try a different possibility, because you're an adult and you can make a different decision as an adult. So it's not about confession (Catholics know that from the confessional). It's about making a new choice as an adult. Pick one of the things you still do in secret. Then take it to a friend, your 3cell, or your Possibility Team.
You can also choose the person who triggers the most anxiety. Say something like: "Hello Name. Many years ago, I started doing Name of the Thing secretly. I noticed that my Gremlin particularly feeds off the fact that I do it secretly, because stealth is a game that he enjoys extremely much. I decided to do something different and stop the old game of sneakiness. That's why I'm putting it out on the table today." Check in with your 4 feelings afterward.
Your Gremlin may try to immediately put a blanket of forgetfulness back on the matter. It's up to you to make another agreement with your friends.
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FINISH THE "SEE NOTHING, HEAR NOTHING, SAY NOTHING GAME" / 2
Matrix Code GRTRANSF.05
Invite two other people to a 3cell. If you are a man, invite two other men, if you are a woman, two other women.
You could check in at the first meeting with the fact that you feel sadness / fear / anger / joy about how the topic of sexuality is dealt with in our society and our modern culture.
That there is a thick blanket of silence on this topic and that you long for a space where the blanket may be removed.
Ask the other two if they also have this longing and will come with you once a week for 3 months to this 3cell that is about the topic of sexuality. In that space, healing can happen.
And maybe the space needs one to go ahead and die first. Be the one. Again and again.
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AVOID EYE CONTACT
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Avoid eye contact with men for a whole week. Also avoid any eye contact with women during this week. Also avoid eye contact with animals during these 7 days. Avoiding eye contact means not looking directly into the eyes of another being at any time. During a conversation with another being, choose a point at least 10 cm away from each eye (you can try some places like the neck, the crown or a shoulder of the person).
This includes not making eye contact with the man standing next to you in the neighboring car at the traffic light. Don't look the cashier in the eye, and don't look the woman coming toward you on the street. Write your experiences, feedback, questions, feelings and the many little things that will happen around this experiment in your BEEP!Book.
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Matrix Code GRTRANSF.07
The word pornography comes from the Greek words porne (whore), peran (to sell) and graphe (image, representation). Open your favorite porn internet site and put your BEEP!Book on the table between you and the screen. Start writing down what you like / what turns you on. For each point, write what the next level down is. I'll give you an example of what I mean by the deeper levels. 1st level: I like that the woman is tied up. 2nd level: I like when women submit to men. 3rd level: I like the fantasy of a grown woman doing what I want her to do. Check in with all four feelings after each description of a picture. Describe at least 10 pictures on your favorite porn internet site like this.
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WRITE AN EROTIC STORY FOR YOURSELF
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After you have explored what you like, you can also write an erotic story. For now, assume that you will not show it to anyone. You can always change your mind. Write the story so that you like it. It should turn you on, no one else. Don't use photos or illustrations, just use words. If the story doesn't turn you on, throw it away and rewrite it. The point is not to write a morally sound story that worships the opposite sex. It's about writing what turns you on and pleases you.
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